Chris Daughtry is so relatable to me now. Nowadays, day and night, I can’t not tune into Daughtry’s songs. It talks about life and probably here I am over-analysing, which is so me. Right now, I’m in a frenzy state of mind at 1.55am in the morning. What’s left of me is a hermit who wanders around aimlessly in his soul-less body with Daughtry’s Home playing in the background. Jessica and Sam were kind enough to drop by to accompany me. They tried to crack jokes and were really nice to me. Somehow I just can’t relate to what they are trying to console me, bring to my comfort. I’m not exactly sad, but I think I’m more in search of my lost life. I’m kinda lost every night. I need something to empower me to get through it. Some may view me as a person with a psychological issue when I write this. Some like Joe totally understands what I’m trying to say. I can’t believe I nearly broke down in front of her today. The tears just came naturally. I just feel so sad that tears began to fill my eyes. It was a hard one holding it back and telling her that we should go upstairs and continue work. I love her more than anything in this world, for that I am glad I do. When I told her that I want her to know I still love her, as much as the first time I see her, I don’t know even what to type now readers. I’m just so in love with this girl. And when she said “Sorry” to me, I really can’t hold back my tears. When I see her face, I see joy. That’s what I see. God, I need another beer now. It’s gonna end with another sip. “Used to” by Daughtry is playing in my Realplayer now. Can’t really type anymore at 2.04am. Still loving you J.
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